Confessions of a Reformed Bigot

Has Christianity become a political party? I believe it has. There was a time when having things the way they are now would have thrilled me. Now, it just brings a tear to my eye.

I was like so many. Whatever the Bible said was true. Only, I picked out which parts of what the Bible said I believed and ignored what I didn’t want to. That is why I ate shrimp but hated gays and lesbians. I believed the laws in Leviticus had been done away with by the coming of Jesus, unless that law was that gays and lesbians were an abomination.

I would often fantasize about things being the way they are today, and think it would be great. It isn’t. Even before things started leaning in that direction, I began to understand the hypocrisy in my beliefs. You can’t believe one part of the old law without believing it al. You can’t believe the old law has been done away with without believing it has all been done away with. You can’t hate and call it love.

1Judge not, that ye be not judged. 2For with what judgment ye judge, ye shall be judged: and with what measure ye mete, it shall be measured to you again. 3And why beholdest thou the mote that is in thy brother’s eye, but considerest not the beam that is in thine own eye? 4Or how wilt thou say to thy brother, Let me pull out the mote out of thine eye; and, behold, a beam is in thine own eye? 5Thou hypocrite, first cast out the beam out of thine own eye; and then shalt thou see clearly to cast out the mote out of thy brother’s eye.

Mathew 7:1-5 KJV

Yes, I was a judger. I was a Pharisee. I saw the evil in others but not the evil in myself. The problem was, what I was seeing as evil wasn’t all evil. It was just my Pharisee training kicking in.

At one time, I felt like I should be going to seminary. I wanted to go out and preach the word and save all the heathens. I wanted to show them what they were doing wrong. I wanted to change them. I forgot that only God has the right to judge.

Since I moved where I live now, I haven’t been able to go to church like I would like. At first, it was because of my health problems. Now, it is because of mom’s health problems. That gave me a chance to view things in the Bible without hearing an interpretation of them every week.

I remember asking God about gay people and being told that it was my job to love them. Judging was his job. That one revelation changed my entire outlook on my Christian faith. No longer was it about judgment. It was about love. It was time to show love and not hate.

That brought up another problem. All of the churches in the area appeared to judge like I once did. It is hard to see past the surface and find a church that doesn’t fit. With mom’s health problems, I can’t go enough to see past the surface. I can’t tell who is judgmental and who isn’t.

As for the tithes, I can’t, in all conscience, give to a church I believe to be doing the devil’s work and not the Lord’s. It is like the money that is supposed to be going to helping the unfortunate that Jesus loved is now going toward keeping them when they are and making it impossible to crawl out. I believe that brings a tear to the Lord’s eye as well. Jesus wasn’t afraid to cry.

Jesus wept.

John 11:35 KJV

I am weeping for Christians today. How has Satan managed to get such a grip in the house of our Lord? How has he turned a faith of love into a faith of hate? How do we go about kicking him out?

I also weep for those who were turned off to Christianity because of the Pharasitical views of so many in the church. They will never know the love we were supposed to share with them.

I weep for myself that I was so judgmental for so long. How many people was I supposed to love that only received judgment from me instead. How often did I make God cry?

May the good Lord help me to show love to those that need it instead of hate. May the Lord always give me the strength to stand up to Satan and his minions. May I always have the ability to see the moat in my own eye and not the speck in others. May I be the Christian God intended me to be.

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3 thoughts on “Confessions of a Reformed Bigot

  1. Admin

    We shouldn’t go around spreading hate, but calling sin what God has called sin is not being a bigot.

    Paul clearly condemnded homosexuality as a sin and an error in Romans 1.

    • I am allowing this because I think everyone should be allowed their opinion. However, the person above is not an admin at this site. I have no idea who they are.

      • Admin

        My name is admin because I am the admin of MY blog. Anyone can click my avatar and it will take them to my blog.

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